saturday

good:

1. watched Ugly Betty with Mares tonight

2. slept in

3. had fantastic spinach/bacon/cheese omelette and hashbrowns with hot sauce

4. felt good after lifting weights at the gym

5. starting to master the stormy section of the Chopin nocturne

6. looked pretty (floral tights, grey pleated skirt, dusty rose tanktop, dice cardigan)

7. did 4 or 5 loads of laundry and will sleep in new sheets tonight

8. Padraic got my letter today

9. did no homework today

bad:

1. did no homework today

2. cardio seemed long and annoying

3. worried about next year (having doubts about Santa Cruz letting me apply late)

4. can't replace my Spanish class

5. there is a gross water bottle full of old diet coke in my room

6. there are rotting cream cheese clumps in the drain of my sink

7. fog

8. was really tired before dinner and fell asleep for 20 min instead of talking to Padraic

9. i have a cold and nose is really sore

10. had a toss-and-turn-type sleep last night

11. i have to write an essay tomorrow

12. i left a few dirty things out of the laundry accidentally

13. i think i lost a black sock

14. once again, my Saturday escaped me

i really can't deal with being here next year. i just can't. if santa cruz doesn't even give me the chance to apply, i think i'll cry. and then i will beg and plead on the phone, or in person, if i must. and when all else fails, i will work for a year and figure out what i want.